Hey there! I've been on a 6 month hiatus. Thats the longest ever. Well, I did wanna come to blog a few times but procrastination got a hold of me so I didnt. Plus, its been one heck of a hectic year for me. I'm so blessed with so many things this year. I have so many things to be thankful for this year. The biggest goes to the man himself up there, without Him, I could have never done it. As always, when it comes to the end of the year, its good to look back at the year and reflect on all the significant memories, a time to be thankful for all we have and how fortunate we are. Here are the significant memories that took place throughout this year:
January: 1st January: I appeared in CLEO Magazine! :D 3rd January: MSU Gala Night. I had an obsession with the movie Istanbul Aku Datang this time, and it so happen the actor came for this event in my campus. I went nuts!! 17th January: TESL Night. This was my first time helping to organize the event. Man, it wasnt easy but I'm glad we did a good job. Kudos to the TESL Club Committee members. February: 23rd January: I donated blood for the first time. It was a nerve wracking experience but I managed to do it. I'm so proud of myself. I need to do it more often to get rid of my fears. 5th February: A script that I wrote was used for the SESS Launching Ceremony. My first time writing a script too! :) 23rd February: Attended Compassion Walk. This was when my whole year changed. March: 10th March: Attended ALPHA in church. My whole year changed because of this too 24th March: A Lent Play in church entitled, 'The Flipside' which I helped with and acted in was held. April: 18th April: Went to KLPAC for the first time. May: 5th May: Barisan Nasional won the elections -.- 8th May: Attended the Suara Rakyat at Kelana Jaya stadium with Juan where I met the voices of our country such as Anwar Ibrahim, A. Samad Said, Ambiga S, Lim Guan Eng and many many more. 18th May: ALPHA weekend in church 24th May: Helped out with the Form 4 pre confirmation camp. June: 5th June: Went to Kuantan and Kuala Terengganu with the family 12th June: I had my 'other-half', Brian Jude Lazaroo. 17th June: MSU Launching Ceremony 23rd June: PKK Annual Charity Dinner July: 25th July: Watched another play at KLPAC. It was Brian's first time. August: 10th August: Catechism teachers camp in PD. I drove from PD to Kajang for the first time. 20th August: Dean's List Award ceremony. I'm so thankful to God for this :') 23rd August: PYC camp in Malacca which I helped to organize and participated in. 29th August: 'The Last 24 Hours' theater production. It was well done and I'm so proud of all the cast and crew members. September: 12th September: Romeo & Juliet play at KLPAC 13th September: Dinner with the old English youth committee and farewell for Amanda and Shaun 21st September: Mini Dodgeball Tournament October: 10th October: Celebrated Brian's birthday in the midst of my final exam. Managed to squeeze in a little bit of time. 12th October: Antipodean for the first time with Brian. Attended Juan's graduation with Alvin. 31st October: Saw Vienna Boys Choir performing at KLCC. It was breathtaking! November: 11th November: Started my final semester for my degree. 14th November: Went to Medan with the family 16th November: Lost my uncle. December: 19th December: Went to Penang with the family 22nd December: I turned 22! :D 25th December. Merry Christmas!! Went to Sitiawan with the family and daddy's side of the family. 28th December: Attended catechism teacher's meeting for next year and found out I'll be the main teacher for the Form 2 class next year *gulps*
Thats about it. Well maybe if you read it, you'd feel that it probably isnt much, but those memories are important to me. Its been a wonderful year indeed. The start of the year was pretty rough. Like everyone else, I decided to make a new year's resolution list of things that I want to do and achieve throughout the year. So I did. Out of all of them, I only can cross out one which is to donate blood and to save a life. You see, every year people make countless resolutions, but do we actually stick to those resolutions. Wait, the question is, why do people make resolutions? Because they want to change right? Well, change is good. And changing for the better is the best. I've learned a lot this year, specifically with my spiritual growth. Thanks to the two important people in my life, they helped me grow spiritually and I would have never known God's love and feel His presence in my life without them. I learned the importance of my studies, the value of friendships, the importance of family members, the compassion for people around me, the understanding to see God in everyone we meet, to see Jesus in our enemies, to persevere in prayer. I could write down a million more things that I've learned, but the most important of them all is I felt God's love. God's healing love. And its beautiful and amazing. When you give yourself and surrender everything to the Lord, you'll see how He works in many ways. So, whats my new year's resolution for next year you may ask? Its simple. I dont want to make new years resolution I cant achieve. I only have one resolution for next year. And its not easy. But this shall be my resolution, to be more like Christ. Jesus didnt have a smooth journey throughout his life, yet he remained a humble man until His very end. I want to be more like Him. I know it is not going to be easy. It is never easy when we choose to follow God. It is how we persevere and whether we want to keep our hearts open for the Lord or leave it half opened or closed completely. Its been a wonderful year indeed. I'm so blessed and thankful to God for all His blessing and also for all the people around me that I love. Looking forward to an amazing year in 2014. I know its going to be great, with God being in control and in the center of my life, my family and my relationship, everything will be good. Have a Wonderful, Happy and Blessed New Year guys!! :)
Well, hello there! I keep telling myself I'd blog but I just have too many other things to do so I rarely come back here. Anyway, I got the above hashtag from Twitter as usual, so I thought I'l blab about it here :)
1. I day dream a lot. Like A LOT. 2. I have already planned 10 years ahead of my life. 3. I love to read but I never have the time so my books are just collecting dust. 4. I love white roses 5. I have a teddy bear that I sleep with every night called, Pinky Bear. 6. I've got 6 dreamcatchers and I want more. 7. I've always wanted to go to UK because I have a weird obsession with UK. 8. Speaking of obsession, I'm obsessed with potatoes. 9. My room is my safe haven. 10. I'm a big fan on indie music 11. I secretly want to marry Ed Sheeran someday. 12. I go all gaga when I see any clothing with floral prints. 13. I don't like handbags and make-ups. 14. My favourite drink is Coca-Cola hands down. 15. The best friend I could ever have is Juan Margrita. 16. My favourite colour is purple and red. 17. I wanted to be an astronaut when I was small. 18. I have a thing for guys with chest hair. LOL. 19. I want Coldplay, Lady Antebellum, Taylor Swift and Ed Sheeran to come to Malaysia so badly 20. I hate people who like to show off. 21. I hate hypocrites. 22. 22 is my favourite number :) 23. I dont like people who wears mask and pretend to be someone they're not. 24. I want to work in Africa someday. 25. I want to work with UNICEF to be exact, someday. 26. Literature is a part of me that is slowly growing. 27. God has been a vital part of my life this whole year. Its amazing. 28. I currently have 31,969 tweets. 29. I currently have 2702 friends on Facebook. 30. If I dont get married by 30, I decided to not get married at all. 31. I've had only one serious relationship before, lasted 3 years. 32. I have a soft spot for country music. 33. I am always terrified going out on dates. 34. I like scented candles. 35. I like those lantern lights and wished they had them at my wedding, if I get married. 36. I have the best housemates and coursemates I could ever ask for. 37. I am regretting agreeing to do this because I cant think. 38. I want to study in UK someday, probably for my Masters. 39. I have 33 dresses. 40. I need my 8 hours of sleep everyday. lol 41. I tend to be judgmental at times and its not a good thing. 42. I have a memory box where I keep significant memories in there. 43. I have the one person that 'got away' 44. I want to sing in front of a crowd someday, but I'm scared. 45. I really badly wanna do bungee jumping one day. 46. I consider myself a hopeless romantic but I dont know how to show it. 47. I like weird and nerdy people. 48. I always dream of having the perfect apartment that I decorate and everything. 49. I hope to complete my PhD by the time I'm 30. 50. I want to volunteer to teach at the Oprah Foundation or UNICEF organization. 51. I want to make enough money so I can donate to the unfortunate people. 52. I'm out of ideas, can I just end it now? 53. I happen to be good at making drinks. LOL 54. My laptop, pencil box, purse and bed sheet is red. 55. My sister and I share clothes. 56. I am currently lying down on the bed now. 57. I am going to go down to make tea shortly. 58. I have almost 200 clothes. 59. I have about 10-15 pairs of shoes/sandals/flats/heels 60. I'm an absolutely shy person if I have to go up in front and speak. 61. I tend to be awkward at times. 62. Mother Teresa is my role model 63. I cant draw to save my life. I suck at arts so bad. 64. I wanna play the guitar or piano someday but I secretly wanna be a drummer. 65. Liverpool and Spain is the best football team in the world. 66. I wanna write a book someday. 67. I have a thing for carpets. I like it when its around the hall or room. 68. Told you I am weird. LOL. 69. FINALLY DONE! #nowplaying The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved :)
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you?
Hello! Guess who's on break now? Well, it isnt really a break because I still have loads of church activities to be done as Palm Sunday and Holy Week is drawing near. Its not a bad thing, i'm not complaining. I love keeping myself busy rather than doing nothing. But right now, i'm just bored. LOL. Took a break from reading my book to come on the laptop, and I found this trending on Twitter, #first30songsonshuffle. Since I dont wanna spam Twitter with this, thought I'd do it here. Here we go!
1. Adele - Someone Like You 2. Owl City & Carly Rae Jepsen - Good Time 3. Florence + The Machine - Shake It Out 4. Glee Cast - Light Up The World 5. The Fray - Never Say Never 6. Foster The People - Pumped Up Kicks 7. Dia Frampton ft Blake Shelton - I Will 8. Glee Cast - Loser Like Me 9. Anna Kendrick - Cups 10. My Chemical Romance - Teenagers 11. Christina Perri - Arms 12. Daughtry - Crawling Back To You 13. James Morrison - You Make It Real 14. Train - Marry Me 15. Bruno Mars - When I Was Your Man 16. Adele - Rolling In The Deep 17. Mat Kearney - Here We Go 18. Mat Kearney - All I Have 19. Chantal Kreviazuk - Feels Like Home 20. Ed Sheeran - U.N.I 21. John Mayer - Heartbreak Warfare 22. Bon Iver - Beth/Rest 23. Coldplay - Paradise 24. Maroon 5 - Goodnight Goodnight 25. Greyson Chance - Take A Look At Me Now 26. Ed Sheeran - Cold Coffee 27. Mumford & Sons - Babel 28. One Direction - Little Things 29. The Click Five - Say Goodnight 30. Selena Gomez - Who Says
Okay, so I have a good mixture of songs I think :p Haha. Okay, back to my book now. See you! :)
Hi everyone! Its been 2 months I know. I've been really really busy. Actually, I'm quite busy now too because my finals will be starting this Wednesday but I just felt the need to write and there's no place better than here. I was practically busy the whole of January. It started with my birthday, then went on to Christmas, then New Year, then came my mid semester exams. Right after that was TESL Night and two weeks after TESL Night was the SESS Launching. After the launching, I had tons of assignments needed to be handed in. And right after all that, finally my final semester exam is this Wednesday. On top of that, our church youths will be having a Lent play for Palm Sunday so thats another addition to my busy schedule. I've been through a lot really. Sometimes I'm amazed with myself because I'm able to cope and hold on for so long despite all the work, sleepless nights. I thought I would breakdown at anytime during January because really, if you had seen me that time, you would know how much I went through. But I stayed strong through it all. Just yesterday after coming back from the Compassion Walk, which was an amazing experience by the way. I learned a lot along the way. I talked to Juan, the best person I can go to for any advice in the world. I'm amazed with her. I told her everything that has been in my mind for so long, everything that I've been holding back. She just told me to let go of everything and surrender them to God. I know I've been away from God for quite some time. I've been so busy with so many things that I neglected my prayers and I feel like I'm so far away from God. I forgot what is it like to be so into Him and talk to Him and just give myself wholeheartedly to Him. I havent felt that for so so long. I want to go to church everyday so badly to pray, to meditate, to spend some time with God but I dont have the time and transportation. Maybe that is why I have been so away from God. Today, I received a shocking news. And when I came home, after I got off the phone with a friend, I just broke down. I cried. Cried like I never cried so much in so long. I kept thinking to myself 'Why am I such a bad friend? Why did I fail in being a good example to my siblings? Why do I always have to please others? Why do I always let my parents down? Why am I not a responsible person? Why Why Why" and all the other questions kept lingering in my mind. I told Juan everything and she asked me to listen to this.
Joel Osteen - God Is In Control Of The Storm
Yes, its 30 minutes. But trust me, listening to this will make you feel so much better. It made me feel a whole lot better. I am learning to let go of things slowly and live for God. He will always be there no matter what. No matter how far we've gone, no matter how we try to hide, God will still find us. He is always there, waiting for us. I know that now. It took me a while to get that, but I am slowly trying to mend the pieces of me which are broken. I'm trying to make God the main person in my life again. I am trying to go back to Him. Because with God, anything is possible. He alone knows the plans He has for you. He will never let you fall, even if He does, He wants you to know that He is there to help you get back up. He is always, always there. You just have to trust in Him and surrender everything to Him. God is in control.
I hope and pray with this, I can go through my exams. Whatever it is, I am surrendering everything to God. I know I havent studied anything yet, but I am slowly doing it now. Whatever happens, I'll leave it all to God. He knows whats best for me.
Thanks for reading guys. Always remember to pray. Have a good week! God bless :)