Thursday, April 26, 2012

love sucks!

I have a new obsession :D 


THE VAMPIRE DIARIES!!!

and, 

THE SECRET CIRCLE!!!

I'm hooked! Seriously. Watch it and you'll know why :)

Sunday, April 15, 2012

I will always remember......

I wanted to put 'compelled' as the title at first, but I figured the title that I put up there would be better. This post might be a little emo but the heck, hope it'll be the last. I had to write it down somewhere and there's no place better than here. It all started when I decided to watch The Vampire Diaries(TVD). I was always so scared of watching this show because of all the biting wrist and blood and all that. If you know me, you'll know that i'm dead scared of wrist. Its my one weird phobia that I have. Never ever touch my wrist. Seriously. 


Anyway, back to TVD, as soon as I started watching the first few episodes, I became addicted to it and the songs in there, my God. I think thats the best show with the best songs, really. And because of that songs, I happen to stumble upon this one song which really got to me, Lifehouse - It Is What It Is. 


I've been ignoring him for weeks simply because I thought that why should I keep going after him when he already made it clear that there's nothing between us. But thats just me, I didnt wanna give up because I kept telling myself he was worth it. But yeah, things happened. Back to the story, it was the night before the earthquake happened. I was watching TVD and I downloaded that Lifehouse song. When I went to bed, I was listening to that song over and over again through my earphones. 


The next thing I knew, I was sitting on my bed and crying. I thought of him and all the memories started rushing in. I texted him and that was it. The next day, day of the earthquake, I got all emo on twitter and then he texted me and I told him whatever it is that happened and what I felt. Yes, I cried again but after that I felt so much better. Its just that........... 

I will always remember the first time we met, at the talk in church....
I will always remember the first time you sent me home....
I will always remember the first time you called me late at night...
I will always remember the first time we went out for a movie together....
I will always remember the first time we went for mass together...
I will always remember the first time we held hands...
I will always remember the first time we hugged...
I will always remember the time we went for the Liverpool game...
I will always remember the time when we sat in the train....
I will always remember the time you came to see me in Pavilion despite working hours....
I will always remember the time we went for dance practices...
I will always remember the non stop texting everyday....
I will always remember the random trip to KL with you.....
I will always remember the time we played in the bouncy thing at the church carnival...
I will always remember how much I loved you.....

I am chocking up just writing all this. There's just too many memories that I have to let go. Its time to close that chapter of my life and move on. Not everything always happens the way we want it to. I had hope, lots of them, but sometimes hoping too much doesnt guarantee things will fall into it place. Of course, you'll always have that place in my heart. Thanks for all those memories, but I know I have to let them go. 

I guess it is what it is
#nowplaying Jason Walker - Echo